Susan Brewer, the coordinator for the talk last Saturday, suggested taking “Bodyfulness” out of the text and making it the title of the talk. It is more interesting than slowing down. I thought that was an excellent suggestion. And now, I am really taken with the idea.
Being in my body is the most rewarding time I spend. Every breath taken with the focus of attention being the feeling state of the body rewards me with everything that was elusive to me in years of spiritual practice. My body doesn’t identify with any of the drama, and while it stores the tension, it is also offers the opportunity for literal release. It’s a practice, but it is also an experience and the experience is transformative. Naturally. Because the body is a part of nature. and inhabiting the body by way of its feeling state being the focus of attention, it builds the muscle of presence for interacting with all of life.
There is a cost, and it is ongoing. It’s facing our demons. Everything we’re running from. Sounds awful. Keeps most people away.
But in my experience, the body is actually pretty gentle most of the time. This from a woman with a chronic illness, but the more I relax into my body, the more my whole life relaxes. and in that state of rest, something comes up – and a deep sense of “hey, i’m being present to whatever comes up, good, bad or in between”– just that much willingness – or more accurately, the willingness to not immediately repress the feeling or experience or label it as bad or undesireable… this orientation, being in the body as the primary experience, not labeling the feeling (or the thoughts triggering it) as wrong, going back to the body and breathing… this might just open up the insight that the wound had been carrying.
The Presence Process describes wounds as power packets. fuel. things that, when released, express their velocity to power us into the direction of our fullest expression. I’ve always loved that concept. Being in somatic awareness is turning the concept into the experience. Priceless.
Bodyfulness feels like what I’ve been looking for. Talking about slowing down sets me up to have to convince people that something with a negative connotation is actually a luxury. It’s a great prize for anyone who can shift the paradigm, but it’s an uphill battle. Why do that?
Bodyfulness evokes mindfulness, which is certainly its orientation, but it is distinct, and “bodyfulness” describes how. It lends itself to the mindset of wanting to be present and respectful. It encapsulates everything i’ve been doing with slowing down, with body practices, with health and nutrition.. it’s really such a nice solution. And it had been right there under my nose until Susan pulled it up and said, “how ’bout this?” I’m pretty excited. my body feels pretty light and buoyant when i think about it, and even moreso when I just feel into it.