I’m excited about the New Year. I’m even more excited about the new decade.
My vision for this adventure is all about conscious evolution. How present can I be to the old, unconscious habits I’ve developed over a lifetime that no longer serve me or my intentions? How can I renew and restore my daily activities so they clearly and decisively contribute to a world that works for everyone, that frees the human psyche (including but not limited to my own) from fear, and participates in nature as a humble and wondrous partner?
Breath by breath, I would say. Decision by decision. Noticing and noticing. Opening and opening.
It’s the journey of a lifetime, this path to conscious engagement in the present moment. I’m getting a trial by fire this month, in that I’ve realized (since a few months into Tai Chi) that the posture I always thought was so great is distributing weight through non-weight-bearing areas along with other problems. So these last few weeks (now starting Heaven and Earth Qi Gong) I have been challenged to be conscious of standing and literally taking each step in a whole new way, and boy has it sucked. I am telling myself that it is the relearning causing the pain and incapacity in my knees for example, but I’ve always been particularly skilled in rationalization. No matter: it is the stories we believe that dictate our emotional state, so mine will believe this is leading to something better, something more durable and reliable and relatable, something that will propel my ability to be of service.
2020 is just such a great year to be alive. No doubt it’s full of true insanity (already!) but I believe that is the counterbalance to the deep and lasting sanity that is taking hold in the hearts of millions. I believe the (r)evolution is upon us – towards a broader and more expansive understanding of community and diversity and gifts and giving, towards self-expression and mutual support. I see it everywhere, and the bounty of teachers demonstrating the simple (not necessarily easy) and expansive truth about the nature of who and what we are – it really is a privilege to be alive and a tremendous responsibility to calibrate and align to the emerging unity and the creative unfolding of a new way of life on this planet. To do the work when fear arises so that we can be with it without fear – so that we can be with it knowing that it has arisen so that it can be met with love, with compassion, with witnessing and with a fearlessness in which it is both welcome and able to dissolve.
I’ve been doing this work for a long time and I am humbled by how much I have yet to do. And yet, this itself is evolution. This itself demands I be more conscious more seconds of each day, developing the capacity to look where I have carefully constructed diversions and letting in some fresh air.
Wholeness means all of it, the exaltation of those moments of felt unity and the humility of the untended areas of my personal garden, and the intention and action to tend to them – gently and powerfully – for the love of the garden, not the promise of its yield.
I believe this decade will be miraculous in many ways, and it is my intention to contribute to the actualization of love in action with every cell of my body, in service to All.